In a previous post entitled Blogging Drawbacks, I explained how I am not the source of ideas for this blog. In a process I call thought presentation, ideas come in a way that allows me to perceive that they are coming from beyond myself.
I was directed to write that post and it’s the same with this one. There are several key points I’ve been told to include. The most important is in the last paragraph of this post.
This source often pushes me to go beyond my comfort zone. As far as this blog goes, I don’t mind making myself look silly for a laugh, but sometimes I worry that I overdo it.
When this disincarnate being began communicating with me, I was thrilled. I previously experimented, studied, and read about non-religious, spiritual topics for many years. I believed a non-physical realm controlled everything in our physical world.
After this communication started, a future scenario was detailed in which I will be able to experience this non-physical realm, and besides certain benefits that can come with that, I’ll have the ability to help others in a way that is immediate and dramatic.
But to attain this, I’m required to go through a period of preparation for this role, an important aspect of which is sexual in nature. I’m also required to do things that are unhealthful, unenjoyable, and not something I’d ever do on my own.
I’ve had many unpleasant experiences that left me with a bad feeling. I find myself dismayed and sometimes humiliated doing things that are required. As well, attracting a significant other would be problematic considering the situation I’m in. I haven’t been in a relationship since I divorced thirteen years ago.
This preparation period has been ongoing for well more that a decade, far longer than I thought it would. Many times I’ve wished I could go back to being like everyone else. However, its been made clear that I will not be released. I am stuck, and I don’t know when or if this preparation period will ever end.
Not everything is unpleasant. I’m active in the Spokane running club scene which provides some camaraderie. I’m required to go out on the town often, nearly always alone (and to return home alone), which can be enjoyable. My discarnate mentor communicates with me constantly, and I’m often entertained by the comments and observations it makes. Many times I’ve had to stifle laughter because I’m out in public alone and there’s no apparent reason for me to be laughing my head off. This keeps me in a good mood (mostly).
Though I don’t mind talking about my experiences, I’m reluctant to go into detail because I haven’t realized the benefits that would justify my behavior. I’ve had to do bewildering things that would make people question my judgement.
Though I know that all my thoughts come from beyond myself (and it’s the same for everyone else, as well), this fact is difficult to believe without the experience of thought presentation. However, many readers of this blog post will soon receive a snippet of this experience, courtesy of a vast, multi-dimensional “being”.